Deep Breaths
Tuesday, January 4. 2011
Changing the year we write on our checks makes some people also want to change their habits. Now seems like as good a time as any for me.
It seems like I spent most of 2010 shooting. Taking aim at the target of the moment, concentrating on what was right in front of me, and failing to force myself into big picture territory. I have hardly written at all, I have spent very little time running, and I haven't engaged in the research and technical tinkering I want to do.
All that has to change—again.
I find that I often scold myself in this blog for not keeping my sights on the things that matter most to me. I don't know how to stop the pattern of behavior of trivializing my life. I'm very scared I simply won't be able to. But that doesn't mean I won't stop trying.
So I'm writing tonight. Not much of any substance, but I'm warming up again. I'll be running in the Walt Disney World Half Marathon on Saturday, with just a minimal amount of training (enough not to die). And I spent the weekend setting up a new "research station" in a corner of my office with a new (repurposed) PC and all my embedded electronics paraphernalia, to start investigating some ideas in earnest (beyond the lightsaber I built over a year ago).
I'm trying. I'm taking deep breaths, and I'm diving in. I want to trust my future self to keep it going. Time will tell.
Changing the year we write on our checks makes some people also want to change their habits. Now seems like as good a time as any for me.
It seems like I spent most of 2010 shooting. Taking aim at the target of the moment, concentrating on what was right in front of me, and failing to force myself into big picture territory. I have hardly written at all, I have spent very little time running, and I haven't engaged in the research and technical tinkering I want to do.
All that has to change—again.
I find that I often scold myself in this blog for not keeping my sights on the things that matter most to me. I don't know how to stop the pattern of behavior of trivializing my life. I'm very scared I simply won't be able to. But that doesn't mean I won't stop trying.
So I'm writing tonight. Not much of any substance, but I'm warming up again. I'll be running in the Walt Disney World Half Marathon on Saturday, with just a minimal amount of training (enough not to die). And I spent the weekend setting up a new "research station" in a corner of my office with a new (repurposed) PC and all my embedded electronics paraphernalia, to start investigating some ideas in earnest (beyond the lightsaber I built over a year ago).
I'm trying. I'm taking deep breaths, and I'm diving in. I want to trust my future self to keep it going. Time will tell.
It seems like I spent most of 2010 shooting. Taking aim at the target of the moment, concentrating on what was right in front of me, and failing to force myself into big picture territory. I have hardly written at all, I have spent very little time running, and I haven't engaged in the research and technical tinkering I want to do.
All that has to change—again.
I find that I often scold myself in this blog for not keeping my sights on the things that matter most to me. I don't know how to stop the pattern of behavior of trivializing my life. I'm very scared I simply won't be able to. But that doesn't mean I won't stop trying.
So I'm writing tonight. Not much of any substance, but I'm warming up again. I'll be running in the Walt Disney World Half Marathon on Saturday, with just a minimal amount of training (enough not to die). And I spent the weekend setting up a new "research station" in a corner of my office with a new (repurposed) PC and all my embedded electronics paraphernalia, to start investigating some ideas in earnest (beyond the lightsaber I built over a year ago).
I'm trying. I'm taking deep breaths, and I'm diving in. I want to trust my future self to keep it going. Time will tell.
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